Winter Sun

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This year for me is intended to be all about the Sun. My relationship with it, its energetic associations, masculine energy and the quality of Fire. The Sun and I have not been friends I must say due to my intolerance to heat, however, there is more to the Sun than the ability to warm and dry the earth. It shows us different sides, I feel depending on the season. Through running my workshop on the four seasons ‘Four Seasons of the Psyche’ I intend to redefine my relationship with summer and the Sun’s heat and the meaning of ‘burning’. I seek to grow into embracing and opening up to what I had often shrunk from. I would like to start observing the Sun in all its seasonal presentations, colours, energies, meanings and its effects on me starting with winter.

In spiritual terms I am drawn to an old ritual and story from Russia surrounding the Sun God, day and night Zorya Goddess

In Druidry there is a tradition to welcome the Sun in the morning and say goodbye to it at night RITUAL, which I do most days and it gives me a strong sense of belonging to the natural world and it also offers a purpose to the day, I find. In the morning I am ready to open myself up to whatever a day would bring, I go about my tasks and musings with intention and focus and when it is evening time I feel grateful to have lived another day and feel blessings inside my heart for all the joys I had experienced and challenges I had overcome. It can be a sort of meditation morning and evening, a daily practice, which roots us in where we are and what we are doing. I adore going out every morning into my garden whatever the weather, the first thing after waking. At night I often bow to the setting Sun and the rising Moon sometimes. It feel sacred, peaceful and meaningful.

For inspiration and devotionals, as part of your rituals and practice I recommend this book containing beautiful musings Celtic Devotional, Daily Prayers and Blessings by Caitlin Matthews 

It is January and the Sun today is bright and glorious. Winter Sun, I find, is not necessarily warming, but illuminating of senses, invigorating of energy within. It takes the film off my sight, so to speak, and clears my senses and I am able to gaze into it with clarity. Instead of Fire energy it has Air qualities to it – penetrating, alert, imaginative, light, and free-spirited. It has a spiritual feel to it too in terms of a visionary and intuitive, it is clear, pure, bright and inspiring. I am finding that I love winter Sun, which also brings crispy, frosty mornings and clear blue sky with it. The whole combination is so rejuvenating that I can never help myself but go out into the clear space of a winter morning. I like feeling a tingle on my face and warmth on the inside as I walk through woods and country fields. I can breathe fully and oh how life-giving it feels.

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A walk in the rain – New Year’s Day 2017

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It is New Year’s Day 2017 and it feels good. I am walking in the rain rejoicing in the element of Water and can’t help feeling how fitting it is for the rain to come this morning. Water is the element of cleansing and life giving. It is as if the last of things passed are being washed away and a new flow of life opening up to us all. It cleanses our cells of the physical, removes webs from our thinking and invigorates the soul.

I had a cleansing bath ritual last night before stepping out into the annual celebration of the New Year and dancing to the chime of the clock. I always felt there was something very symbolic, special and reassuring when it is time to count down seconds. I felt the moment very strongly with excitement spread all over me  knowing whatever had passed is no longer and there is only now and a possibility of tomorrow.

This morning I woke up and was presented with a list of signatures for this year. Very clear messages, which I will share with you below. An intuitive reading for 2017.

Hard work – this times are inviting us into embracing our skills, knowledge and potential in a very active way, doing things, getting out there into the world and being real and present and to achieve. Hard work is a very earthy sweet signature, which I feel I am going to enjoy.

More forgiveness – get less tangled up with vibrations that really do nothing for us, being able to step away from situations, which concern no parts of you, observe with no judgement and let it be, continue on your way with your heart open at all times.

Gentle loving to the physical – this one relates to our physical bodies, which are seeking lightness and softness from us. Listen to your bodies, align with its needs and desires and give whatever is needed. Try not to exercise control over your body, but rather flow with it intuitively in any given moment. It needs loving attention.

Getting stuck in – similar to hard work speaking of getting involved in causes close to your heart, use the voice that is present within and manifest massages into the world with love and care and compassionate involvement whether it is voluntary work or taking a trip to help a certain cause.

Gifting – give to yourself and others, from within out and from out in. Give and receive. This is another sweet delicious signature I think I am going to enjoy in particular, I feel. Step it up a notch, put deeper thought into what you wish to give and how you can appreciate those around you. Gifting is love.

Opening up horizons, learning – another very important signature inviting us to expand in our knowledge, skills and experience. We must continue to grow, the more we grow the more we feel part of things, the more we learn the more we become accepting of things. Travel, join up with groups, begin a course you always wanted to do. Dare to be brave with your desires to grow.

Stretching into light – a signature of spirit present alongside us at all times reminds us we are never alone and invites us to step into our own light more, take that power back and use it for the good, for the benefit of others, yourself and the world. Walk through portals of spirit, an integral part of welcoming light to the soul.

Rising up to your potential – you are so much more than you have been told, you learnt to believe and convinced yourself to be. You are all pure, strong, filled with light and immeasurable potential. Incredible complexity of each being offers an opportunity to visit every part of yourself and discover gems lying within us under layers of restriction. Dig deeper and rise up through the dark places towards the light of hope and strength. Climb that mountain – the view will be well worth it.

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Mix it up, spice it up – now it’s the time to add ingredients to your life that you’ve been afraid to use. Do not fear your own power, spicing up your vibration and infusing it with delicious mixtures will emit the most beautiful glow. Do not be afraid to use from within yourself what you have always feared to show to the world.

Take care of the base – safe places within us and outside of us need attention and more usage. They need solid acknowledgement and caretaking. Whether it is a safe base within you, your sanctuary you visit when your light feels dim or it is an outside place or a person, people, like your family, take care of those places, as they vibrate and align with love within you. They are precious.

Achievement is one of the primary feeling signatures in me this morning. I feel proud and relieved to have made this far and able to walk through the dense energies of the last few days into this new opening. I walk in the rain and I quickly notice I am accompanied by a light being. It is skinny and fairly small made of light, crystal light. It has no face or clothes, it is a physical body made out of light matter, translucent and floating next to me. It never left my side for the duration of the walk. I was getting wet by the rain and it felt so good. I felt reassured of the light being with me always. A guide of some kind, I thought, and it felt incredibly protective of me, accepting and very present. A part of me that felt like walking with me in the rain was important on this New day. No words were exchanged between us or messages transmitted, but what was clear that within me there is a place of incredible light that can be experienced in life, as real as the rain that touched my face and wet my hair. I smiled more and more, breathed deeply and welcomed all that was present on this morning of new beginnings.

Happy New Year!

 

The season of transitions

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Autumn is the time when summer lingers still not wanting to let go, but carrying a deep knowing that it must surrender its hot days and green armor at the same time. As winter often fearful of leaving, like an ice princess it perseveres with its bitter bite and powerful winds, like spring that brings rain to a land in an attempt to overflow arrival of heat and steady sunshine, summer is too is holding on with its green leaves and surprisingly hot sunny days.

I go through transitions during Autumn when it is the time to take stock of the harvest and think about what to keep and what to let go off, what will serve us well and what is no longer needed. It is the waning part of the year with clearing space for the next stage, next season of our journey.

I walked to the woods this morning to witness the process of transition mirrored back to me. There is sadness, fear present and also surrender at the same time. Just like death it can feel final, lonely and utterly terrifying. I came across a dying hare lying on the path. I leaned down witnessing its struggle to stand up and run into the field, it couldn’t. I felt hopeless and helpless. Distress was so hard to watch and I felt its fear deep within me. I picked it up and moved it to the hedge on the side of the main path and sat with it stroking its long ears. It felt calmer, more surrendered and comfortable. I spoke gently to it. I then walked on leaving the hare to transition in its own time, giving it some privacy. The balance of involvement and allowing is so important.

In nature everything is always just as it should be. Trees stand in their patient postures rooted in the knowledge of things always changing and transitioning, yet there is also a degree of resistance, anticipation, and uncertainty of what’s to come. Nature walks through the cycles with confidence, as it is in the very core of life with all relationships, beginnings and endings, flourishing times and periods of famine and scarcity. Nature knows, yet trees are hesitant to drop its green lush foliage and insects are all around taking in the last warm air. The sun is shining, but it no longer burns, it knows it must die, but only to return again. There is such peace in nature’s presence, deep knowing and surrender and with every transition it teaches us to just be with what is, allow for things to flow, change and when time comes die.

I walked back. The hare lay dead on the path where I moved it from. It looked serene, peaceful and perfectly still. It left this world, the struggle was over and it looked beautiful with its beady black eyes staring into another space. I am filled with sadness, but also a relief that one journey ended and another will begin shortly and so it goes again and again with each turn of the nature’s wheel.

Blessed Mabon!

 

Frozen. Mindful healing in nature 

 
Frozen in the Earth plane consciousness has been my state since yesterday.

Whenever we come up against obstacles and limitations in our daily reality our mind comes forward with thought processes that are not helpful. It manifests in a way of blocking some feelings and often awakening fear and anger.

This morning all I wanted to do was to hide in bed and not see the light of day. I had no feeling in the body and no  sense of smell. My breath was hardly noticeable and I couldn’t  cry. I was frozen.

I forced myself to go for a walk into my woods. Forcing is unusual for me, but here it felt necessary. I noticed as I walked that I had no desire to get in touch with anything around me. I  didn’t want to reach out and touch tree branches or leaves, as I would do normally. I also couldn’t smell anything literally. In terms of vision all I saw was the path in front of me and I said to myself ‘the same old, the same old’. I heard birds singing, but it didn’t reach my senses, had no effect on me. My spirit was saddened, I felt deeply lost, abandoned and empty.

In the moment I decided to surrender to nature and ask it to do to me whatever needed doing. I was seeking mindful awakening. I sat down on a fallen tree and waited. I was set on letting the elements do to me what they would.

For a while I was very still and frozen, nothing happened. My sadness spread within yet no tears came and I decided to walk. I took off my hat and this was something I always did in the woods. My crown chakra and my hair and ears needed to be uncovered. I couldn’t hear or receive much otherwise. When I reached water things began to shift.

I realised that in order for me to ‘unfreeze’ all elements needed to be present around me in order to tap into internal elements. I noticed the Sun giving a comforting glow to my aura through the branches. Woods around me spoke to me of home and belonging,  air renewed my breath, water encouraged movement and flow and the whole forest projected unconditional love towards my being.

I gasped for air and filled my lungs and instantly energised I began to pick up pace and walked with more confidence. I now heard birds around reassuring me about the right path I was on. I started to feel my legs stronger underneath me and I became more aware of my physical body.

Birds flew about their business communicating with one another and I wondered what their life was like. The birdsong was divine in nature and they were forever present in its flow engaging it whenever they needed.

Another tool that is helpful when needing to reawaken senses is getting out of breath. Yes, makes sense, right. One of the reasons exercise is recommended for low mood amongst other complaints. I climbed a hill and got out of breath and instantly felt alive and energetic again within my body. I began to touch trees as I walked, connecting.

Trees have buzzing energy to me like stones do, but softer, flesher due to their connection to the earth. I feel their roots deep in the warm muddy womb.

I was called to expand and kept on walking covering a wider area of the woods.
Tree – standing tall, be flexible release tension I leaned against its reassuring posture. It has access to all, moist earth, clean air, water at all times from above or below and the sun glow of fire. How lucky I think. In parallel we also have access to all elements whenever we need it. The difference is that trees don’t question it, they are just in whatever is present unlike humans who fight and freeze and blow and fly away in all our defences. Nature mirrors back the perfect unity of just being.

As I stood against a tree I became aware of the scent in the air, it penetrated me. My breath deepened and as it usually did my awareness sharpened to all things around me. Feeling returned to my legs and I felt strong once again. My walk also awakened nice memories of spring in Oxford with air so fresh and cherry blossoms everywhere. I also remembered a day out by the sea with my boys in Brighton. Sea air and walking on the beach scattered with beautiful stones and shells.

I become curious whether it was a certain place that my memories were asking me to revisit, or was it simply memories coming alive as reminders of my life experiences.

Feeling much stronger, focused and aware of all my senses I walked back home. Ice melted, feeling returned and balance was restored.