I am home

The wilderness possesses me with its air as fresh and sharp as a blade of grass

My senses entwine with the spirit it holds

Precious, powerful, ancient

I walk the place feeling the roots grabbing at my feet

I need it, oh how I need it

Take me whole, I say,

Swaddle me in mystery and myth so I can become the voice as ancient as eternity

Wilderness feeds me with its elements as vibrant and penetrating as a gaze of a loved one

I surrender to the glory of all it is and become myself at once as a native animal at a distance and wild flowers all around

The wind slaps me in the face and I welcome its magic of removing webs of my unseeing

Immersion in the body of its water engulfs me as the loving and nurturing mother

I am home, fed, alive like never before

Space vs enclosure

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The debate started within me after my last visit to Scotland when one week I spent in the North with vast open spaces, wilderness mountains and the sea and the other week was spent in a tiny cottage in the woods. You can read about my experiences HERE. 
What I thought I preferred turned out to be something else and I was asked to consider other ways and it was a challenge.
Recently after spending a whole day in the woods and ‘overdosing’ on nature but not in a good way I was reminded of my experience in Scotland. It made me think further about spaces, my preferences and how things are changing for me as I continue on my healing and spiritual journey.

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Discovering your purpose in Nature, communicating with trees and the Elements

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I am feeling dizzy and sensing being called into the woods. I am also drawn to reading some spiritual text, particularly on planes of consciousness. I just read the latest blog from Teal Swan and I cried. You can read it HERE. It touched me, as her writing is very similar to mine, I find, and the way she describes her experiences in different places resonate with how I experience places. Here are my blog posts on places I visited and spiritual experiences. (Isle of Skye and Snowdonia, Wales). Teal has such a ‘flow’ throughout, the flow that I am attracted to strongly. So, I am going to the woods, to commune with the trees and join in embrace. I feel dizzy, ‘spaced out’ feeling and what I feel is there is a reason and purpose to the feeling, it is not just feeling dizzy. Something is trying to put me to sleep almost it feels, there is veil just above my brow, which is hanging a bit too heavy.

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I left the house with a clear quartz in one pocket and my phone in another to be used as a camera, as I never know what I may encounter on my narrative walks. I call them ‘narratives’, as there is always a story, a message, a purpose that comes to me when I am out in my woods and often I write afterwards. Today is such a day.

I still feel dizzy and as I approach the woods I inhale deeply and oh, it is so good to be out. This morning I pulled a card, which said – go outside… Here I am walking towards my usual entrance point, but what I find is a blockage, you can see on the picture.

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I am immediately diverted from entering the woods my usual way and I continue forward. The next entrance I encounter is a clear opening into something I am about to find out. It is a gateway.

I turn right instinctively and from that point decide consciously I am going to walk wherever the sense takes me. I walk through the thick greenness of the woods, it is peaceful and so fresh here. I come to a clearing, which looks unusual and I know this is where that something is, yet I am not ready, I continue walking intuitively and see my guardian tree at a distance. I thought about ‘him’ recently when finding myself struggling with lack of ‘male’ energy within, lack of Fire. I remember turning right a minute ago and it makes sense again, as not only the right side represents expressive nature of the male, but I was also meant to see ‘him’. That tree is a representative of a male parent to me, it is old and wise, holding and understanding. One glimpse of ‘him’ and I know what he is saying. He affirms my energy available to me whenever I need to tap into it. I bow with thanks and turn back into the woods. Read More

Earth and Water as perfect companions

Rebalancing code Water/Earth pictures taken this morning with my Blue Lace Agate crystal (more below)

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I have been noticing how I don’t naturally flow in the hot weather in terms of creativity or high energy. I crave shade and a cool breeze and today is just the perfect morning. Fresh, crisp, cool, but still warm and no sun or wind. Bliss! Perfect summer morning.

I was thinking how Fire and Air elements are often distorted in a way they become unbearable when balance is missing or their presentation becomes extreme, e.g. extreme heat or extreme wind when other elements like cool Water or lush green Earth are absent. Today is the perfect combination of Water and Earth coming up within me and observed around me. Just as I don’t align well with distortions of Fire and Air within myself, I don’t always welcome them in nature and what I am left with this morning is Water and Earth, perfect companions.

The way I instinctively picked up a Blue lace Agate this morning off the shelf just before drawing a Tarot card of the Knight of Water, indicated that something wasn’t in balance emotionally and my body and soul needed soothing and comforting. It also showed that something needed to be expressed, hence the blue throat chakra stone in my pocket and the card of Knight of Cups. Emotions!

I found myself slightly out of balance with emotions this morning, which manifested in an outburst of some unexpressed needs over the last week. It was just a moment, but it pulled me back into myself and I asked myself ‘how do I feel and what do I need right now?’ These questions are great for bringing attention not just to the present moment, but becoming aware and conscious of how one feels. Unconscious projection of emotions can produce unwelcome results, as we are all familiar with.

What I needed was solitude, a need to recharge and rebalance and the best companion for Water is Earth. To me that means Nature, walking alone and hiding in the woods, sitting against trees and holding on to their trunks and branches for comfort and reassurance, being in touch with the forest floor. This morning Water spilled out in the need for Earth.

My husband is a strong Earth type and what a comfort he gives to me as a natural Water type. He is solid, reassuring, safe and constant much like a tree or the Earth itself. He is home and he is roots to me. Instead of experiencing him fighting back or projecting back against my overflow of emotional need I see a smile, a safe comforting energy of ‘come here’, a knowing that there is an Earthy kind of embrace awaits me, always, when I need it. That knowing is my anchor, my Earth, my balancer.

As I walked through the forest and each step met with the Earth in perfect partnership I felt my creativity coming alive under the shade of my beloved trees and a cool, gentle Air whispering musings into my ear. Water element is also creativity. I took a deep breath and once again became aware of loving the shade, the cool, the quiet and the creative. My need was met and I came up with five different blog posts in my head. Ideas still flowed in abundance as I arrived home with a heart full of joy, head full of beautiful musings and images, my body relaxed and energised at the same time and my emotions perfectly in balance with the safe embrace of the Earth.

Blue Lace Agate: it is a wonderful healing, soothing, cooling and calming stone. It also allows you to experience the higher energies or raise your vibration. It is one of the most nurturing and supportive stones. It will neutralize distortions.

It counteracts the suppression of feelings and allows for free expression and creativity. It brings a deep sense of peace.

The Knight of Cups: the card represents someone in touch with their sensitivities and emotions, it is a ‘feminine’ kind of energy and links with romance and love. It is also about relationships and connections to yourself through the feeling sense. The Knight is knowing and flowing and in touch with his Water, he is showing you the open channel through which emotions can flow, possibilities of being open to love. It is ok to be sensitive, it is ok to be you just the way it is. It offers possibilities for new relationships and the card has an element of hope and natural flow of events and encounters. It provokes inspiration and encourages creativity, it already knows the way and invites you to join in adventure of it all.

I took this picture by accident on my walk and what a beautiful and exact representation of Water/Earth balancing it is. It is creativity and life-force in action.

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I am a big devotee of the Elements and as a witch I work with their energy every day. Here are some prints/cards I created, which would make perfect addition to your Book of Shadow or placing on your altar. Supplied electronically or as a physical item. Check it out HERE

Some videos on working with the Elements

A Witch on the bike

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When I go on my bike I am instantly called to connect with all the elements around me, so I mount my trusted horse and fly through the woods, by the water, up and down the hill in the cool morning air.

Most of my musings come to me either on my mindful walks or my bike rides and today’s topics were of the words and symbols. I have been using the word witch recently more often than before. I really like it. There is energy in every word that we utter, in the tone that we use and the feeling that follows. The word derives from the Old English nouns wicca ‘sorcerer, male witch’ and wicce ‘sorceress, female witch’. The word also has some Old English and Germanic roots, which connects with the word we use today ‘hag’, which is what I associate with the most.

A hag to me is an old soul. It is not necessarily an old woman with white hair, as one might imagine. It can be a woman of any age, even a child. To me it is more about her energetic, intuitive sense and her understanding of magical ways ‘make-up’ that makes her ‘old’. The old energy is knowing and directive, feeling at ease with the knowledge of the deeper magic of the world and all experiences around us. It has an ancestral flavour to it and such souls, I feel, have visited the Earth many times before.

Ever since I was a child my mother said I was ‘not of this world’, which being an extremely sensitive soul I always took as her misunderstanding of me, non-acceptance of some sort and even being a threat, however, my ‘adult, old soul’ side proceeded in the way that I knew was right for me and that wisdom later on allowed me understanding of what my mother meant and her ‘wonder’ of me. She also always said and still does that she never worries about me, she knows that I know what to do, when to do it and how to do it and that it will get done whatever it is I set my mind on.

Even as a young woman I always felt beyond my years and I do believe that my being in the young physical body or my association with what a young body is never mattered to me. Physical beauty has always been of less importance to me in myself and others, either male or female. I see ‘through’ people, right into the soul and that’s what always matters. That’s where true beauty lies.

I have also experienced cravings for the old age, I see a huge amount of freedom in being old. I guess this is something to observe as I walk into the middle point of my life this year. Another association and my alignment with the ‘hag’ is my huge attraction to Baba Yaga archetype and the last quarter of the year. Samhain is the most exciting and ‘homely’ time of the year for me. I was also born straight after, in November.

So, while riding my trusted companion this morning I was contemplating the use of words in our daily life. This is something that came up a lot this week in my own work with clients and with my own therapist. The way we talk to ourselves matters hugely, as words hold energies, which we often unconsciously direct into people and things, which then affect events and our behaviour in ways that are not welcomed. For example, as I was exploring with my client earlier this week her situation regarding a job, I heard her saying several times ‘I already decided I am not going to get a job even before I applied’. She then got into a state of anxiety and panic and also an expectation of the outcome being bad, but at the same time hoping it will not be.

What we align with we get back. The universe is the mirror of energies we project and intentions we send out into the world. Most of the time this process is unconscious and that is the point that needs addressing, raising our awareness of our own words and actions. We explored my client’s feelings and her thoughts on changing a lot of words that she uses in her daily life and see if vibrations within her body and around her change. If we change ‘I can’t’ to ‘I can’ is something that at least opens up a possibility for things to happen and even if they don’t, we would have tried with faith in ourselves, however, if we block something before it even happens, that block will prevent a flow of energy towards the outcome that you are seeking.

Magic is all about intention and manipulating energy towards the outcome that you seek or desire. Using words in the right way and with the vibration in alignment with your desired outcome is very important. I like writing my own spells, but also sometimes when I come across something written by someone else and it sounds ‘just right’ for whatever work I have in mind, I will certainly use it.

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So, on the Eve of 2015 Summer Solstice and with the forthcoming demise of the Oak king we are shifting into the next stage of the year, the Wheel is turning once again. I have felt the looming shift for the whole month, which manifested in my dreams of ‘death and rebirth’, ‘bodies and babies’, feeling energetically quite vibrant, like something is about to be ignited, something new and strong and also sensing some endings, ‘mini death’. I had two clients complete their work in the last two weeks and I am feeling a few things in my life ‘dying out’, old habits that ran its course, a change of things around in my environment and building up new structures, like my new Healing shed. All is good and all makes sense in the world to me when I am in alignment with nature and its cycles and it is so wonderful. I solidify my knowing with a bit of shapeshifting with the elements this morning.

As I fly on my ‘horse’ through fragrant with jasmine and elderflower woods I inhale the cool and pure morning air and I spread my wings like a bird flying into the new space of possibilities.

When I encounter water and yellow lilies poking their beautiful little heads from the deep I become a frog jumping from one leaf to another with my feet touching the water, comforting and healing. I feel immense gratitude.

I become a ball of Fire with vibrant flames and powerful language of the masculine, as I ride with force, drive and full focus, which exhilarates all my senses and the inner dragon delights in its power.

The old tree becomes my Earth and as a Dryad, a tree spirit of the woods, I hug the old Oak and it hugs me back and as I feel enveloped into its warm bark I feel protected and supported.

Wishing you a blessed Summer Solstice, beautiful beings! I am off to Stonehenge and I can not wait to feel at home once again, at one with the Earth, the spirits, the ancestors and with who I AM.

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