In breaking down breaking through…


Do you feel as if the ground disappears under your feet threatening for you to fall into abyss? Do you feel and see things disintegrating and changing shape in an instant in front your very eyes and you barely have time to draw breath? Is your body screaming with twisting energy that coils hot through your centre and pierces flesh in several places at the same time? You want to scream, cry, run and die in that moment, but you are hit with one thing after another you don’t have time to feel or do anything. I described this time we are in right now is like trying to prop up a heavy wall, which is set on falling down, like holding up a sky above with no break to breath or stretch. There is this cruel, vicious-like push against your whole body and a hard slap in the face everywhere you look.

The answer after a period of fighting and losing is surrender. Let that wall fall, step away, jump away or just sit down and watch it fall, let it all collapse around you. WE are going through a period of intense cleansing and purification and it has no mercy this time, there is no more time given to consider options, to make a choice, it is being made for us, it is necessary and no more time to waste. We either surrender to life changing events and energetic upgrades or we get destroyed in the process and death is very much around, just in case…

I had hysterical scary episodes this month, uncontrollable sobbing and hair taring moments that promised my demise utterly and completely, testing me to the core of my abilities and inner strength. Will I still stand when tears stop falling and body stop shaking? Will I still be able to talk and stand straight with something to offer myself and others? Will I feel truly cleansed and purified? I sure hope so… In the meantime in breaking down I am breaking through and what I knew as comfort and safety is being ripped away from me and what I attached to for a long time is snatched out of my grasp. It IS for the best, I know it is, and one must embrace the cruelty of the process like I never have done before.

Blessings to all!


Purification process 2016 

Purification and cleansing is the signature of this year. It has been a difficult process like layers being stripped off, removed with swift movements and often without much break in between. It really is time, universe means business, I feel, and yes, it feels abrupt, unapologetic, but necessary. It is also a strange place to be and reconcile with one hit after another of intense emotional states and up and down moods. I hold the faith in nature knowing it is what it is meant to be.

So far intuitive information has pointed towards sorting out and saying good-bye to bad habits once and for all, as it appears that whatever had accumulated over the years in our environment, that would include physical and emotional bodies, no longer fits with the purpose of today. There’s energy of rejection from the body and also the spirit and a message to move up a level in health and consciousness. There’s almost no choice, one has to get on board with what is happening. There’s a need to become lighter and with the vibration of more simplicity and less density comes a more vibrant wise presence on earth. What we really need to do is get out of the way and surrender to the wisdom of our bodies and intuitive knowing.

Blessed cleansing!

Imbolc – the stirring of the Earth

Imbolc 2016
Imbolc altar 2016

The Feminine stirs gently stretching towards the potential light underneath warm layers of soil. With my body I feel the nourishment, with my limbs I predict movement that will propel my body into creating energy by walking, in my skin I know and cherish every breath of the Earth that runs through my blood. I am home, I am safe, I am powerful and gentle. I am in love with everything that is Gaia and all that is me that lives within her. I am a ray of the Sun manifested on Earth. I am a servant and devoted manifestation of all that The Spirit has in store for us, Earthlings. We carry it gently, we merge with the Earth for all the lessons contained within it and within us. What a wonderful journey of becoming, unfolding, stretching into consciousness and manifesting gifts that seem unimaginable, yet very simple.

Walk on Earth with your feet bare, feel how she feels and merge with the rhythms and vibrations of the warm pulsating heart hidden underneath the rich soil and warm protective layer. Imbolc is approaching, things are coming into life. My heart begins to flutter with the knowledge of new possibilities, cleansing, purifying, refreshing my ways and musings and my walk upon the sacred and homely. It is the time to cleanse the home, work on protecting with light and love all that we cherish dear. It is time to light the Fire of new possibilities, new births within our souls and listening to that gentle voice that is approaching us beneath the layers of the Earth, calling us into new ways of being, new adventures and explorations.

Blessed Imbolc, Gaia calls for renewal and peace

Brigit dances in the light of the Sun with her hair flying free in the fresh breathe

You stretch your arms and straiten your body, rise up as if you are a tree growing from the Earth to the Sky and let your face immerse into the Sunshine of the season, all the possibilities that it brings

Birth yourself all over again with the turn of the Wheel.

Words to describe this festival are feminine energy, returning to light, internal Fire, candles, birth, purification, poetry, creating arts, home, moving towards the Sun

At Imbolc all those creative ideas, plans, visions, stirrings of the heart that excited and propelled you into possibilities present an opening into becoming, showing ways to manifest and keep that Fire going. It is reminiscent of the New Moon energy where we plan, we seed and we watch something grow. Imbolc is the time to tune into all that is possible.

At this time we might want to ask ourselves bigger questions like Can I do this? Am I part of the bigger picture? Am I capable, worthy, strong enough? Feel your way into experiencing this ‘cracking open’ moment, slow, careful, gentle, but intentive, focused and inevitable. You are what you believe you are, your strength is just as real as the Heat of the Sun or the movement of the ocean or the greenness of trees in mid-summer. Embody the carrier of that Fire torch, Brigit, the Goddess of home and creativity, nurturing and birth and as you accompany her on her journey through the land during Imbolc, days before and after, feel your feet firmly on the ground and your heart wide open to all that is possible.