I would like to share the story of my cat familiar – Lydia. She came into my life about a year ago and the learning I received from her has been rich and wonderful. She’s been one of the main catalysts in my spiritual development and continual integration of shadow sides of my psyche. She is now about 1.5 years old, so quite young, but so knowing, confident, wise and wild, truly in touch with her natural instincts and deeply knowing of her own abilities and purpose. Such a profound teacher and companion.
Two or three months before the end of 2013 I experienced an extreme yearning for a black cat. The feeling was so intense and all-consuming that I often found myself unable to function or concentrate on daily activities. I was completely overcome by the pulling feeling in my solar plexus, a similar feeling to when you miss someone desperately. The feeling had a sense of loss and grief to it too. No matter how hard I tried to ignore or eliminate the feeling it came back even stronger. I didn’t know what to do, but I did know I must have that cat. By the time the year was ending I could not imagine not having that cat in my life, but I didn’t know which direction to turn. I was told by many that I must wait for the animal, what seemed like a familiar to turn up on my door step or come to me in other ways. The waiting was extremely hard and once sitting with a client in a garden studio a black cat appeared at the door looking at me for a few seconds through the glass before disappearing. My heart jumped and I remember running out of the house as soon as my work with a client was finished. I was very aware of the desperate feeling to see the cat again, yet it was gone. I also felt that it meant what I am waiting for and looking for is near. It filled me with great excitement, anxiety and even more yearning in my soul.
‘Left me wanting for more…’
‘I love everything you do. You are a blessing!’
‘The class was very informational, and presented very well. I absolutely loved it.’
‘I felt encouraged, inspired and guided’
‘I would have paid even more for it…’
‘Awesome experience, magic…’
‘Easy to understand information. Perfect.’
Imbolc is the first pagan fire festival of the year and the first promise of spring when the Earth begins to stir into life. It is associated with the bride Goddess Brigit (my favourite spelling), Irish Goddess of hearth and home, who comes to me very strongly on the eve of Imbolc. Brigit is the Goddess of healing and inspiration, her presence blessed the Earth for centuries and her sacred fire had been kept alive and cherished by so many before us. Today she is very present for me, as I light a white candle, make my Brigit cross and sit down to draw her face.
This month I go on a journey with her for 30 days doing little exercises every day to tune into her energy and honour her sacred presence during this transitional time. I look at what I am looking to release in order to let myself be born again and what my new being seeks to manifest and also what seeks me. It is the time of rebirth and separating from the familiar and starting afresh. It can be scary yet necessary again and again, as we flow through the cycles of nature and life. With each new cycle we have wonderful opportunities to grow, nothing stays the same and nothing stands still, it is in the movement forward and letting go off what holds us back we experience the flow of life. Our actions, feelings and thoughts create our reality and with conscious awareness of potential growth and flow through all our experiences we live, we manifest, we learn and we find peace and joy.