The promise of spring lies deep within the earth we walk on
With every hour and every day the light grows brighter into being
The silence and nakedness of it all is loud with life stirring deep in the darkness
Like spring life blooms, like winter it dies
yet we know so it should be with hope
If you listen with your ear to the warm belly flowers kick and a song rises from a distant flock of birds bringing new life to the next cycle
And so it goes year after year, life after life, death after death and amidst it all is us part human part nature in a dance of eternity swaying in the wind and washing in the rain in compete surrender to it all
And what a joy it is to be, to wake and rise, to fall and die over and over like a never ending beautiful dance of everything there is. As above so is below, as within so is in nature. The perfect harmony of light and darkness, the perfect end of the beginning
The season evokes hope in me like nothing else. Bitter winds slapping me into here and now, reminding me who I am and where I am. Fresh bite of freezing temperatures penetrates my skin and I feel instantly renewed. The pure white scenery of the land is otherworldly yet it is right here in front of me and I am so grateful to be a part of it all, belonging…
The season inspires me like no other. In its nakedness so much is revealed and a space is created. When the light seemingly goes out on outside and the Moon is on its throne, the fire within me grows stronger. I love the darkness and its protection. I love snow and its tender nurture for the earth’s peaceful sleep. I love all life and regeneration that goes on underneath earthly layers. I love the freedom winter brings to the spirit that enjoys the spaciousness and a blank canvas to be used.
Beautiful architecture of stripped down trees reveals the essence of being, just as it is, with no embellishments or cover ups. It’s beautifully vulnerable yet their strengths lies within its roots. Just like for all of us when we dig deeper we find gold. Deep within the darkness we find connection, we cultivate networks and comradeship to our spirit and all that’s around us. Either a tree form or a human form we are the same in life, made of the same material and that is comforting to know.
Yule is near and the first promise of light carries hope that all will bloom again. My heart grows with excitement and content knowing the wheel is about to turn once more.
Many seasonal blessings!
Are you the wind that whispers in my ear or a stream beneath my feet with its bubbling tones
Are you a bird, a tree, a flower that I encounter or are you silence amidst the night air
I feel you in all corners of existence
Be it noise or quiet, dark or light
You are in all the tapestry of life that I perceive daily
You are moments of my holding breath and standing still when my heart wants to fly away to all the places that you are
You are my life’s anchor like the oldest wisdom there is that tells me to stay, to act, to dream and be
You are my life as much as anything I know that I am. Made up parts of one whole, a million of others merged together yet I can pick you apart from any other
You feel most of all like home, a soft fleshy part of my soul a colour of the purest blue and green and purple
I take you in with each breath as if the sweetest taste I have ever experienced
I am grateful to you for touching the earth and imprinting my heart with you and only you that for the rest of my days I will always know what it feels like to love, to grieve, to grow and surrender…
As a new dawn rises over the horizon every morning and root tunnels under a tree in winter begin to stir in anticipation of a new beginning we know of our own potential to start again, to achieve and to grow. As in nature so is in our soul. There is no difference in processes that are within us and out in the natural world.
‘Don’t have time’ is a myth. Time is time and we are in control of what we do with it. When we say we don’t have time it might just mean we are using it on things non-essential or overwhelming ourselves with things that can either be delegated, postponed or even stopped all together.
‘When I have more time’ is an excuse. More time may mean you will do anything but what you say you want to do. More time can also mean less focus and discipline, less structure. Heard of deadlines? I like those as they provide containment for tasks and endeavours and focus efforts and mind on a task therefore often less time or the perception of it can be beneficial to show you how good you can be in consolidating efforts and focusing.
If we want something badly enough we will find the time, always, one way or another. That’s my experience and I am sure many would join me in that. It might take some time to get to that point but mostly it is all in our minds and how we look at it rather than actual time available to us.
Human cognitive constructs keep us back and away from achieving things we are sure capable of if it wasn’t for our mind’s constant talk and us believing its every word. We trap ourselves without realising. What about if we change our perception of our thoughts, we evaluate them as and when they come up. Do we really believe what it’s saying to us on a regular basis. Do we realise that not only we don’t have to listen we can also disagree, ignore and redefine a few beliefs to benefit our moving forward. Here’s an idea. It is all possible.
Realising that whatever is desired within reach is a truly liberating feeling that resides between a heart and a stomach in the body. It has a vibrant, warming sensation with it that can ignite a self-belief and in turn fire up the mind in a way that is focused and purposeful. Our potential is boundless and as we travel we find it out in one way or another. Yes, it requires work and determination, but sometimes things just flow in and out of our experience with ease and comfort. It is in allowing for anything and everything to come in so we can make decisions in which direction we go. Choices are provided and if we are brave enough to take them up we can grow and complete things we want.
“I miss you”, she thought to herself quietly flying towards it in her mind.
“I am here”, the land replied, always here.
“I think I know that now”, she breathed in easy yet with a touch of sadness.
“Any time, anywhere in your awareness I live”, the land gently spoke.
“In my awareness you live and like a precious jewel I carry you close to my heart”, she replied.
One day you are a stunning white bird singing so loud I can’t ignore you or pretend it doesn’t hurt to hear your song. The next day you are leaves under my feet content and ready to surrender.
In my awareness you live, in that awareness I breathe till the next time I step into your arms expansive and raw and scream again, ” I am here, I have missed you so…”
It is possible not to get caught in a web even when you are in one. For as long as you have awareness there’s always a choice. You might even step into the web willingly if you are aware of possibilities of leaving it when you choose to. Until a few years year I would never have thought it possible and would have fought against any potential claim on my freedom. Most of them had been perceived, of course, as I understood working through what they call a ‘prisoner complex, fear of entrapment’.
I am in a place of conscious choice and action and that place of freedom that had been so precious to me has remained intact. True evolution and healing. I got to that place with awareness of life’s constant changes and movements and my own personal choice of being able to step out or away from whatever doesn’t feel right. I also discover that risks can be taken, discomfort can be introduced to a certain degree to test our own ability to adapt, grow and ultimately learn.
It takes time to get to a place where fear has no power and, of course, it is not always possible to sustain it constantly, but that would be unnatural as sometimes we need to be afraid. However, fear that stops us from moving forward is not helpful and pushing through that can open up places within us and show us potential and resourcefulness we might not have known we had. Think of acting in an emergency situation, it is scary and intense yet we all have the capacity to bring forward qualities from within needed in such circumstances. We are all able to respond.
Having worked towards not just defining what freedom is for me for most of my life, but also actively seeking it I have fallen into various traps personally and professionally yet what I know now that the search had led me to a place I now know well. Without trials and errors I would not have comprehended a sense of what being free means and being able to define it for myself. The biggest and most profound factor in any undertaking is awareness. It is like a beautiful chain that offers more and more links as you look at it closely. It is like a trail of fireflies in a night meadow. As you follow one another one lights up ahead. Becoming aware of one thing then leads to discovering another and another until there’s ultimately no end to what we can be aware of and adapting it to our circumstances and situations.
Awareness most of all offers choices and with choices we can see a way forward clearer, there’s a potential to switch course, take a different route, experiment and take risk or simply do nothing. This is powerful and helpful in life’s navigation.