I fell in love on the day the sun stood still in the sky and a breathe in the land’s air touched places in me I never knew existed
I fell to my knees struck breathless not knowing what I was or where
Yet deep inside my soul the knowing was strong as if an old tale I had heard a million times was unfolding in front of me
I fell in love just like that first time as if I had always known you
It is here I belong and only here the land speaks through me in language we both understand
In the silence of land’s dreaming I feel my blood streaming through it’s valleys, my tears part of its ocean and every cell within me matches hers
Edwardian houses line up clean streets with flower baskets hanging symmetrically on doors, as if keeping things in order. It has classic and elegant look to things. Every time I go somewhere I am taken back by just how different each place feels. It evokes particular feelings in me. This place has always drawn me in with its sophistication and class running through the theme of its buildings, streets and the overall posture of the place. It is all standing tall and proud and I find it very reassuring somehow. I am here for two reasons, to see if the feeling I get is still intact and positive, and I am also on a trip in search of silence away from the noises of planes and roads, which lately has been overwhelming me. I find myself struggling with the constant buzzing noise in the air wherever I go.
Human nature is such that seemingly it is never satisfied yet it is satisfaction and fulfilment we seek. Granted, often in wrong places we look for things to make us feel ‘comfortable’. That is unconscious avoidance and most of the time we all have elements
of unconscious avoidance in our quest for comfort. We’ve all been there.
When awareness is applied eventually or finally, it seems we realise the degree of our discomfort and seek ways to become comfortable on what appears real way. Getting ‘comfortable’ in a conscious way links to doing what we love without applying any damage to ourselves or others. It’s got to benefit the overall life we lead. But what happens when we have done that?
I experienced it this year when I sat in a space of ‘I’ve done it’ what else is there? I slowly after a period of awareness of what true comfort is began to waver seeking way to disrupt that feeling, again consciously and unconscious elements started popping up. Dissociating from where I am, seeking tasks I haven’t really wanted to do and what it brought is a realisation of that human nature factor that we need a degree of discomfort to know we are comfortable. It is ebb and flow of life, ups and downs that are needed to know right from wrong and dark from light. The overarching lesson is acceptance of what is here and now and not seeking to escape purposefully into either comfort or discomfort and allowing whatever comes arrive at our door.
Some questions are easy to answer and other questions have no answer only an exploration of possibilities and improve abilities. What about a meaning of life? For many the answer will be certain and definite and for some the question will never be answered fully or the answer will change as life evolves. Life is about meaning making whether we are aware of its doing or not. Unconscious or conscious we go through life performing tasks and engaging in dynamics that are either meaningful to us or have no identifying factor of meaning included in the experience.
What is the meaning of life? Like everyone I have pondered upon the question and the closest answer I have come up with for me is that the meaning of life is life itself. It is the very act of living that creates meaning day-to-day. It is in finding what brings your heart and soul joy and then living through those experiences effecting yourself and others around you. Surely it’s got to come from the heart, so to speak, a place where one is truly content with what is in their life be it family, work, books, art or the natural world and al the things include in those categories, feelings, thoughts, dreams, goals. Expression of meaning can come through various undertakings throughout a lifespan and it is unique for everyone.
What is the meaning of life for you?
Last night I found myself curiously led to researching something I had never resonated with but had tried to explore on several occasions and for a moment there I felt first paying attention, then being confused, followed by feeling lost and somewhat empty. Not a great feeling. I also understood how it is very much possible to be swept away with something or being convinced by a set of ideas depending on the emotional and thinking state a person researching something is at that moment. I thought to myself ‘nah’, it felt very much like a trap, like a veil very nearly went over me, yet I didn’t quite fall into it.
Renewed after a good night sleep and armoured with some empowering dreams’ material circulating in me I found today clarifying and simple. I felt reaffirmed again that Nature is the only God for me. It is seeing divine and sacred in simple and ordinary things as nature shows without necessarily the supernatural element. If anything that is in addition or a part of something else. Nature is right in the centre of what it is to live a meaningful life, what it is to know unconditional love and know yourself as a whole (light and dark), what it means to be a part of the natural world and living in accordance with its cycles and most of all experience feelings, emotions and sensations like nowhere else can offer for me from snowfall in winter to standing on top of the highest mountain drinking in wind and rain. For me that is all living as close to those experiences as possible that makes me who I am and makes my soul feel fulfilled, nourished and looked after.
When I look all around I know what is divine and my heart leaps into a space of unimaginable light and joy. Truly spiritual experience surrounding by living, breathing, ever-changing natural world.