Winter Solstice Walk

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As I walk through nature on the eve of Winter Solstice I feel the pulling and pushing, defending and releasing. There’s a real fight going on between life and death, darkness and light. All is not calm, all is not settled in the howling wind and crows frantic in the air circling the Earth. Energies are high, loud and penetrating. On the search for an object to represent New, represent light and virgin to set intentions for new beginnings.

I sit in the open space being pushed from side to side by the wind as if rocking me to feel everything around me and I do. I sit for a while and take in the turbulence of emotion outside and inside of me. I stand up and walk towards a horse standing by the fence, it gently looks at me and continues to chew on grass with no concern or worry. I begin to feel a certain release of tension and look down. Here it is, right in front of me, the object I have been looking for to use in the New Moon ritual. A stone, which energy is gently rising towards my awareness. I pick it up and put it in my pocket. It feels just right where it is. I breathe a sigh of relief and smile.

Gentle chattering of branches and distant bird songs, a little twit here and there amidst the strong wind. It feels cosy though. I am smiling, my pace is slower and something is released in me as I continue on the path of today.

I feel I am not alone, there are energies surrounding me, beings peaking from behind trees and I feel amused and smiling towards the sky. Collecting attire for my Yule log I come across nature jewels and with thanks I carry it safely with me.

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Forest spreads its welcoming arms open in front of me and I hear noises of joy and peace. The wind is now behind me with its threatening howls. Squirrels acrobatically scatter through the trees, as if playing hide and seek. They sit and stare before shooting off again into the labyrinth of branches.

I feel the urge to climb a beautiful giant of tree in front of me. It is enticingly open and vibrates warmth towards me. I must touch it. It vibrates under my fingers and feels like home.
I often shapeshift with trees, who are my safest haven. I feel the wind, the earth, the rain and heat – whole elemental experience from the position of a tree. My experience is intoxicatingly knowing and in perfect alignment.

I turn off the path with renewed curiosity and the cooing of wild life invites me to explore further. There’s a knocking sound coming from my left, I am aware I am about to receive something. Ahh, there it is, It is a clearing towards light and air changes into clean, sudden wisps of beautiful flow. Softness replaces hardness, fierceness gives way to gentleness.

I find myself rooted on the spot, there is more for me here, patience. The wind drops completely and I fall into a state of semi-sleepiness with
only sounds of nature surrounding my senses. The Earth is moist, my heart softens even further. I touch the ground and it is a mixture of old and new, ripe and decayed, soft and hard – all polarities making whole in the Earth which is ALL…

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The word ‘Love’ comes into my awareness and what’s this? A bit of Sun?The sky is opening up with tender light, slowly… It smells like wet moss and soil with a hint of flowery scent and woody deliciousness. It is familiar and it triggers childhood memories of picking mushrooms in late autumn, moistness of the ground.

The trees above are waving good bye to me as I walk out of the clearing and towards some houses ahead. I smile and bow.

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Something is stuck in my throat, I begin to cough, something is wanting to come out – unsaid emotional pain, anger, sadness, something unexpressed wanting to be released
– a lesson from the Earth I hear. ‘Sit with it, release it free and breathe easy through the belly of the solar plexus’. I hear it, I breathe in deeply and feeling somewhat dizzy I sense all that is suppressed. In the woods I breathe
easy, outside I choke – how telling…

Next I am entering the forest again and I soon find myself feeling stronger, walking taller, with my voice waiting to erupt from my chest like a lion’s roar. I feel that Fire and follow its call into a big scream, a scream for life, a scream for love and all things just and patient. My body tingles
with the glow of gold.

I might be breathless, but I am strong
I might be fierce but I belong with all my softness and tender touch to
thee, the Earth, the universal light.

I can feel a light being behind me flowing with the wind and blessing my steps as I leave my sacred forest with renewed strength and vitality. I feel alive! Welcome light, welcome life!

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Archetypes and Tarot

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Archetypes are energies, which flow and become present through the channel of collective unconscious. They are energies, which enter into our experiences to give us clues to who we are in a multidensional sense and what aspect of ourselves needs attention. It is often interesting through intuitive guidance to observe in another or feel in yourself a certain response or a behaviour, which can somewhat align with a certain archetypal energy. It can be confusing or unclear what is happening and what a course of action should be. Archetypes are powerful forces, which can throw things out of balance unless one focuses on its purpose and directly address their significance in a certain situation or generally in daily interactions.

I have come up with a 1 Card Archetypal Tarot reading, which looks at Major arcana cards from an archetypal point of view and their attributes, e.g. what mental, emotional, physical and spiritual attributes a certain energy is carrying for the receiver of the reading. We all have an archetypal personality attributes, if you like and we all will have our own distinctive way of thinking, feeling, behaving and being.

In the deck that I use there are 22 Archetypes. We are all part of one whole and I strongly believe in ‘wholeness’ of each personality. The universal person expresses all 22 Archetypes personality styles. Each of us is a mosaic of these characteristics.

The way I work with cards is by utilising my intuition, which means when I have a strong feeling about something or sense a particular energy I might move away from traditional interpretations of some cards (I also include those) and using my intuitive guidance and sense to tap into information, which might be relevant to a person in a particular situation rather than in a general sense. I follow a belief that one aspect would have different interpretations for different people, i.e. no one card has one meaning for all participants, not always. My Tarot readings, therefore, are a combination of traditional interpretations and intuitive information.

Traditionally archetypal cards are read through linking the numbers on an archetype card with corresponding attributes cards – Cups (emotional attributes), World (physical experiences), Crystals (mental attributes) and Wands (spiritual aspects). For example, The Empress III archetype card would correspond with your emotional aspects represented in 3 of Cups (love of creation, Venus, nurturing love, etc.). 3 of Crystals would mean that you possess the mentality of creativity and give birth to ideas, etc. There are links that are made between all attributes in relation to the archetype present for you.

An archetypal Tarot card reading can throw light on what aspects of yourself need attention and what archetypal energies are around you and also where you are in the Fool’s journey in a more traditional sense. Tapping into them can be beneficial to the process you are in currently. To give you an example, one of my archetypes, which has been around for a while (an elegant Lady – I associate this archetype with the Fortune card). It represents old values and behaviours, rules and moral codes (these are my personal intuitive interpretations). In a wider, more general sense of the card it relates to wealth and opportunity and how I see it and been affected by abundance or the opposite vibration of ‘lack of’.

I hope you find this information interesting and will explore archetypal energies for yourself through Tarot card readings I offer.

Self-love is NOT bad

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We hear about self-love more and more these days in a sense that one must give oneself love in order to be able to give out into the world. There is a strong dissonance of energy between giving and receiving in the world generally. Often we are good at giving, but terrible at receiving. Sounds familiar? We have bought into the idea of unquestionable self-sacrifice and understand receiving as bad, selfish, not allowed and even shameful. What we do is simply abandon ourselves each and every time, tricking ourselves into believing we are doing something right. We abandon our own internal system of guidance, which, if only we listened, would move us towards our highest self and our soul’s purpose. We listen to one internal voice, which stems from years of internalised belief that we are bad if we don’t give out fully and we are not good enough if we allow ourselves to receive. By listening to one voice, we ignore another, which is our intuitive guidance of the soul carrying messages of love and compassion. We rationalise why something makes us feel good, something that comes from inside, no, we don’t have time to stop and listen, we must go on with doing and giving and often making ourselves invisible and ill in the process.
This cruel conditioning seems to be ruling so much of our existence and robbing us of health, validation, recognition and sanity. Why is that? We are all part of one whole, one source of the Divine energy, which is unconditional love, yes, that’s right, YOU are divine and YOU are love, so fill your cup up full and stop emptying it so readily under the illusion that you must do that… Learn to receive in equal measures to giving and rock that sacred Feminine and Masculine like we were meant to. It seems to be the hardest task for almost all to re-learn self-love, to understand that we can not separate from ‘we are here’ and ‘they are there’. It is all one and we are built from the same material.
On the other side of the dilemma is that our soul’s purpose are abandoned through us abandoning our voice of love, our voice of intuition, we become unwell physically, emotionally, spiritually, because we often look for love, acknowledgement and validation in the wrong places. We look outwards and not inwards, because looking inwards is something we are yet to re-learn, something we are to get acquainted with all over again, something we knew well when we were born, but through human experience of conditioning we forgot. When in times of despair our soul’s song is not heard, we feel alone and we feel we might as well not exist.
Divine knows you, Divine is a part of you, and building a relationship with the Divine and having a conscious link with your intuitive guidance system are a sure road back to yourself, to the natural state of being as one with it all. Breaking away from chains of our conditioning is tough and in breaking away we break down, but it is in breaking down we find a way towards the light.