Lessons in challenges 2019

Now is a very futile time for psychic material to align with the universal wisdom. This year has been challenging, but what is beginning to transpire that this time round challenges are dressed as opportunities. More than that these opportunities present themselves as a deeper way of working with what we need and want in order to shift and move forward towards thriving. The goal now is to change how things are done on a more meaningful, conscious and intentional level.

You might have been experiencing creation of space or an ‘emptying out’ effect. This is true for me. Emptying in a way that might look like ‘lack’, but actually it is clearing the ground for us as an opportunity to create completely anew. It is challenging us to see whether we fall into our old patterns of thinking through our core believes, defaulting, or going towards needs and wants with clear intentions instead. To notice is the key here.

When you observe your reality right now, what do you notice? Do you feel a certain shift in energy and things around you lately? How does it feel to you? What do you think this shift is asking of you? Remember that whatever happens in the universe at large it always has your best interest at heart. It wants you to grown, thrive and be your best creative self. It wants you to manifest, so it is a positive even though it might feel as negative.

If it does feel bad to you ask yourself what your instant reaction is? Do you see yourself resorting to old ways of trying to bring back what you think you are losing. Any shifts, chellenges or changes are designed to trigger you, but if you are aware of what is being triggered and why (doesn’t matter what triggers you), then you can catch it and resist an automatic reaction that you had always used. Instead stop and be with what is happening.

For example you might experience a decrease in sales in your business or a number of your regular clients dropped to a minimum. One reaction could be fear and panic, which is being triggered and we automaticallly beginning to think of things in a way of ‘surviving’ and then making choices based on what we think will stop us feeling that way. Natural, but there’s another way. Notice how your intentions in such cases come from ‘lack’ rather than what can be possible or in other words, abundance. Another response could be to say it is ok to be where you are. Pause, reflect on whether what you have been doing had been fulfilling to your true heart’s desire. You might be surprised. And if the answer is no, exactly that empty space is offering you an opportunity to create anew and move into your next stage of consciousness with your true needs and wants in check. It is not something you are doing or not doing, none of it relates to your abilities and gifts it is all about applying default, historical patterns of thinking to one situation after another. Time to change the method itself.

It is this month in particular that is so opportune for old stuff ‘exploding’ in our faces, it is a build up of energy (Solstice in nature) that is not often pleasant for everyone. Cycles begin to go back to zero, resetting time, which is an opportunity to create again consciously and with a clear intention. It comes as a tough test to see if we fill this space with stuff that’s coming from fear, position of ‘whatever it takes to feel safe, doesn’t matter what and how’ or will we allow for things to come to us via intuition and awareness, therefore, manifesting what we truly need and want.

Emptiness triggers fear and pulls us back into ‘unsafe’, ‘not enough’, into a survival mode, but what if we looked at emptiness as an opening for creation, a blank canvas where anything is possible.

‘Help yourself’ magic

Spring Equinox

There is nothing like spring coming back that invites us more into life. It calls for awakening from stillness and dreaming of dark winter. It pulls a body into a much needed stretch, into a new kind of movement and engagement with the world. It offers that space to hear a new song from within ourselves that had been hibernating and birthing in darkness.

It has been a tough winter for many in 2019 that made us stuck in chaos, confused and stalled, not much movement other than in dreams and other types of realities. The process had been necessary, as everything is always is, and the purpose of the ‘stuckness’ was to explore ourselves from a position of where we are and who we are, what are our realities and do they serve us. It has not been an easy download to understand and integrate, however, relying on intuition and instinct had been useful even those areas halted in space that invited asking help from outside. Sometimes there is nothing wrong with asking for help from outside when we are stuck and this can be particularly useful and necessary for those of us, who is not used to asking for help and instead there for everyone else. This was partly the work of this winter to get to know that pattern again from a perspective that actually it is absolutely ok to ask for that hand that we need to hold on to and it is ok not to lead once in a while. I also realised that when you do ask for help you then are able to help yourself better – an interesting insight, which manifested through some magical workings that also involved asking for help from the elementals. This is something I have not done before necessarily in this way, but, as always based on the intuitive knowing this is what came through.

I asked ‘Help me’ while in nature doing the work and two days later I got it. It came as a voice, a message, an insight that said ‘Help yourself’. It contained the energy of giving back to me the knowing and responsibility for my own healing. We are the best healers for ourselves without a doubt, but that does depend very much on our relationships with ourselves. Doing the ‘self’ work whether it is through a therapeutic relationship, spiritual practice, other activities, all of those together, will put you in touch with yourself like nothing else and that is the most important element to ensure one lives in a way that it ‘whole’, fulfilling and peaceful. Without a doubt the best gift of self work is you integrate back into what you were always meant to be with all your beautiful resources, qualities, unique gifts, resilience and potential intact. In order to get there we often need to ask for help, we need to learn to reach out and relate, connect without fear or judgement. We need to be vulnerable to become truly strong and grounded and we need courage and strength to be vulnerable when it is terrifying.

This spring feels already like a very nourished, turned over soil that is ready to share its bounty and wisdom with us if we are willing to be patient with our newly planted seeds, warm and kind with ourselves, accepting of all that we are, good and bad, twisted and glorious, strong and weak – all of that richness that is the soil of our bodies and the light of our souls. I am excited to see what is to come. It is all new again.

Keeping dreams alive

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How does one keep a dream alive?

By seeing it the same over and over and every so often changing the edges of that painting that springs from a place within delighting your whole being.

Keeping something alive is imagining it moving into a state of being, solidified and present, from an idea into an actionable something. Like building a house, I suppose, brick by brick a vision materialises in raw materials. Hard to imagine at first yet through working on it, adding to it and building it up soon it begins to take shape. It makes sense why I love watching programmes where people create dreams in a way of building houses, or creating spaces for their hearts and souls to take refuge and be at one with that something special we all seek.

Dreams need to be dreamt about, they need to be thought of into action, so to speak. Two processes are at work with dreaming a dream. One is through the power of thought, faith and vision and the other through small steps, actions towards seeing it through. Life doesn’t just happen to us, we need to participate in it. ‘Simply being’ is one thing, but often life requires a certain action from us in order to move forward. Both positions are important. Dreams become reality when we keep them alive by imagining them into completion and walking towards that final image we hold dear. One day we stand in front of it and know ‘this is it’, ‘I’ve done it. I’ve dreamt it alive into a physical manifestation’. I have a dream like this myself and over the last few years it has been solidifying in my mind with various details being added to it and necessary steps becoming clearer and clearer. I am enjoying this process immensely and it keeps something bright and beautiful within me alive and breathing. It is warm and shining, cosy and grounding.

A walk in the rain – New Year’s Day 2017

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It is New Year’s Day 2017 and it feels good. I am walking in the rain rejoicing in the element of Water and can’t help feeling how fitting it is for the rain to come this morning. Water is the element of cleansing and life giving. It is as if the last of things passed are being washed away and a new flow of life opening up to us all. It cleanses our cells of the physical, removes webs from our thinking and invigorates the soul.

I had a cleansing bath ritual last night before stepping out into the annual celebration of the New Year and dancing to the chime of the clock. I always felt there was something very symbolic, special and reassuring when it is time to count down seconds. I felt the moment very strongly with excitement spread all over me  knowing whatever had passed is no longer and there is only now and a possibility of tomorrow.

This morning I woke up and was presented with a list of signatures for this year. Very clear messages, which I will share with you below. An intuitive reading for 2017.

Hard work – this times are inviting us into embracing our skills, knowledge and potential in a very active way, doing things, getting out there into the world and being real and present and to achieve. Hard work is a very earthy sweet signature, which I feel I am going to enjoy.

More forgiveness – get less tangled up with vibrations that really do nothing for us, being able to step away from situations, which concern no parts of you, observe with no judgement and let it be, continue on your way with your heart open at all times.

Gentle loving to the physical – this one relates to our physical bodies, which are seeking lightness and softness from us. Listen to your bodies, align with its needs and desires and give whatever is needed. Try not to exercise control over your body, but rather flow with it intuitively in any given moment. It needs loving attention.

Getting stuck in – similar to hard work speaking of getting involved in causes close to your heart, use the voice that is present within and manifest massages into the world with love and care and compassionate involvement whether it is voluntary work or taking a trip to help a certain cause.

Gifting – give to yourself and others, from within out and from out in. Give and receive. This is another sweet delicious signature I think I am going to enjoy in particular, I feel. Step it up a notch, put deeper thought into what you wish to give and how you can appreciate those around you. Gifting is love.

Opening up horizons, learning – another very important signature inviting us to expand in our knowledge, skills and experience. We must continue to grow, the more we grow the more we feel part of things, the more we learn the more we become accepting of things. Travel, join up with groups, begin a course you always wanted to do. Dare to be brave with your desires to grow.

Stretching into light – a signature of spirit present alongside us at all times reminds us we are never alone and invites us to step into our own light more, take that power back and use it for the good, for the benefit of others, yourself and the world. Walk through portals of spirit, an integral part of welcoming light to the soul.

Rising up to your potential – you are so much more than you have been told, you learnt to believe and convinced yourself to be. You are all pure, strong, filled with light and immeasurable potential. Incredible complexity of each being offers an opportunity to visit every part of yourself and discover gems lying within us under layers of restriction. Dig deeper and rise up through the dark places towards the light of hope and strength. Climb that mountain – the view will be well worth it.

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Mix it up, spice it up – now it’s the time to add ingredients to your life that you’ve been afraid to use. Do not fear your own power, spicing up your vibration and infusing it with delicious mixtures will emit the most beautiful glow. Do not be afraid to use from within yourself what you have always feared to show to the world.

Take care of the base – safe places within us and outside of us need attention and more usage. They need solid acknowledgement and caretaking. Whether it is a safe base within you, your sanctuary you visit when your light feels dim or it is an outside place or a person, people, like your family, take care of those places, as they vibrate and align with love within you. They are precious.

Achievement is one of the primary feeling signatures in me this morning. I feel proud and relieved to have made this far and able to walk through the dense energies of the last few days into this new opening. I walk in the rain and I quickly notice I am accompanied by a light being. It is skinny and fairly small made of light, crystal light. It has no face or clothes, it is a physical body made out of light matter, translucent and floating next to me. It never left my side for the duration of the walk. I was getting wet by the rain and it felt so good. I felt reassured of the light being with me always. A guide of some kind, I thought, and it felt incredibly protective of me, accepting and very present. A part of me that felt like walking with me in the rain was important on this New day. No words were exchanged between us or messages transmitted, but what was clear that within me there is a place of incredible light that can be experienced in life, as real as the rain that touched my face and wet my hair. I smiled more and more, breathed deeply and welcomed all that was present on this morning of new beginnings.

Happy New Year!

 

New Moon revisited

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I just read an old post of mine about upgrades I received a while back about love during Dark Moon period. POST HERE 

During that time the information I received was to cultivate the love within, make it grow regardless on whether I am in a relationship or not. My awareness of inner power and the vibration of unconditional love within became strong and clear. What I also felt, however, and yes, this is the tinge of darker shade I imagine needed to be added, was my lack of need for a partner. I feel that was thrown in there to see if I get confused, by-pass a few things and really get the message. Reading it back my perception of what the message really was changed. It was wonderful to have received the insight and a real felt sense of the love within me. I connected to myself on a different level during that time and it has stayed with me, but what was the other side of it? Did I really need to abandon all my relationships purely because I felt I didn’t need that for as long as I love myself? Do you see a slight distortion in the message that I perceived to be that way. It is a bit of riddle, which in this post I attempt to unravel.

With some time passed and a few view on that particular time and insight I can see the mixture of vibrations woven into what I was experiencing. It was yet another test, firstly, on whether I would be able to really connect to myself and sustain that vibration of self-love on a continuous basis. The second part was to challenge me to stop and think deeper into what was actually best for me and how that newly found inner love could serve me AND the other rather than ‘I don’t need the other, I am complete as I am’. Over some time what occurred in my life with regards to my life partner has actually been a deepening of our connection and love rather than abolition of all connection. What I feel now is not only love within, but deep wisdom of the Earthly love and what that means to be a partner, a wife, a life companion. It feels deeply grounded, safe and soul soothing. One might say my initial insight had taken me on a journey towards further discovering of how my inner love manifested out there in my relationships and through deepening connecting rather than letting go off it, my inner love grew and my wisdom became a guiding voice here on Earth. One might say the Spirit vibration got manifested in real terms in this dimension, which is the ultimate goal of spirituality and a struggle for so many.

The lesson of this is not to see things as they appear on the surface, but allow for it to develop, look deeper, give it time to really make sense in your body and in your current reality. There is often more to a message than meets the eye and we are often to quick to make a judgement and a decision, which sometimes is nothing more than an unconscious attempt to run away from something, a resistance to something.

Happy New Moon and cultivating new seeds of love and wisdom!

 

Manifesting completion 

 
With the time of manifestation here another wave of clearing comes in and it makes sense as for something truly new to be born we must create an empty space.

Early autumn is like a Full moon. It is the time when things come to a ripe conclusion or they begin to fall away. It is the time for harvesting, clearing and evaluation. I love the energy of ‘stripping’ away and just like trees begin to lose their foliage I enjoy the feeling of bare freshness of a completed cycle.

I have come to like this naked ’emptiness’, which also seems to bring a distinct clarity of mind and vision. It feels similar to a state of fasting when all senses sharpen and eyes seem to see further. Lies get exposed, ugliness tastes bitter and apparent. At this time I want to exhale with all my might and move towards peace with no attachments to outcomes, to a space of flow and allowing. I feel like clearing spaces and tidying things away to welcome even more bareness to come with the air getting colder and skies darker. It feels cosy and comforting to me this chilly openness and freshness of colder air.