Underneath peace there is aggression. I wonder if it’s possible? I felt it growing around me, towards me and penetrating my energy field. By day two it was everywhere and I either felt numb, frozen on the spot as if suspended in the air observing all that goes on down below or I was filled with hatred. What appears peaceful at first might have an aggressor hidden within. This was an interesting experience and a warning that this, indeed, is possible.
Here, in particular, I would like to discuss this in relation to a spiritual by-pass and what happens when one seeks to cover one with another without moving even the top of the soil, so to speak. There is no intention to dig deep, there is only intention to cover up and then become ‘suspended’ above it all so not to touch the ‘shit’.
I sat in the woods for a few hours this weekend while attending a festival surrounded by a lot of people and children and I simply observed. I tell you that the support of a tree against my head and my back was absolutely necessary. The trees were pines and I adore their reassuring and solid vibration, as well as pleasant smell of ‘home’ and freshness. I sat on the ground and I people watched. Initially I felt peace around me, light vibration that hardly had any movement. It was pleasant, yes, intoxicating yet there was something else behind it I kept on thinking. I realised there was a pull towards ‘peace’ energy from my side and I allowed for that to come in, but I also allowed something else to birth with that initial vibration. The shadow side of peace is aggression. On day two it became clear and I felt deeply rooted aggression within so many. It is very well hidden in some and not so well in others. There are also beings I came across that felt solidly genuine in their intention and comfortable in their skins. This was affecting me greatly as I also began to feel my own shadow, my own inner aggression. It was mirroring it back to me, it was a two-way process. More specifically, however, what I felt from the place and others is aggression, which had been covered with spirituality in mind. I began to see children displaying similar energy, which felt very odd, but they appeared like angry animals with extremely strong aggression vibration. It all felt unbalanced somewhat. I began to think of what this might mean. We all are familiar with spiritual by-passing when something is not being looked at within and deliberately covered up by spiritual intentions and language. Perhaps, spirituality also became a copying mechanism for many when dealing with the world at large, which is full of terror and fear. It is all understandable, but I also couldn’t help feeling a clear sense of loss, sadness and already exhausted from just over a day of what I didn’t initially know what it was, I felt I didn’t want to participate or had energy to look deeper. Yes, I escaped to my home holding on to my centre for dear life. An energetic experience I never forget and will continue to learn from for days, months to come I am sure.
I would encourage everyone to be observant of your surroundings and check everything against how you feel, what a situation, a person, an exchange, etc. evokes in you and why. Some of you might get clear instant messages of what you are experiencing and what a message is, others might become aware later on. The main thing always is to check against your emotional, feeling body in all situations. It is the best way to know for sure what is going on and what to do next, in my experience.