Unconscious bit still hangs on somewhere deep in my psyche with regards to May and spring, which I believe relates to romantic relationships’ wounding of the past. What it seems to have done now is seeped through under the layers and tried to conceal itself as a trickster. I am only just beginning to unfold the meaning of this quite unpleasant and irritating energy. Some signs when you feel off somewhat is to consider unconscious material that might still remain unprocessed. It can be stubborn and sticky, it also can shift to present itself in a different way or to disguise itself as ‘resolved’ when, in fact, it simply changed shape, which can feel like a subtle friction with your awareness rather than a strong slap in the face.
Litha is approaching. It has always been my least favourite time due to my relationship with the Sun and the power of the masculine. This year it is very quiet, however, and I am not aware of much other than that something is waiting in the shadows, ready to pounce. It doesn’t feel safe. Never good having to be on guide. I am also aware of being lulled into a false sense of security during the last month and this. Tricky times, which I am not sure how will remedy itself, but it will, I am sure. Things never stay the same for long. Hoping for a change in energy post 22 June, as there is always quite a noticeable shift in the environment physical and spiritual and the countdown to darkness begins, which offers a degree of relief to my psyche although I am not desperate for it this year. Surprise. I noticed enjoyment of the season a lot more, perhaps, because it is quite fresh and temperatures are low, which I love. However, I also felt recently I was shifting into embracing something else more than I did before, but here it is again, a sense of being tricked into believing something that is not actually true. That is quite difficult to deal with.
Staying still and not reacting is one possible approach I can recommend and implementing myself right now. I do not recommend making any big changes or decisions during this time. Wait till after Summer Solstice. You never know you might see things naturally begin to manifest after the energy of the season is dispersed a bit more and a view clears. I also feel a release of energy is needed for Litha, an active release like having a big Fire, eating, drinking, dancing and laughing. All functions to do with the body and expressed through the body. This is the intention.
Enjoy this what feels like an obscure, mysterious and tricky time this year.