The Goddess connection finally happened at the end of last year and today is the end she called to me, or rather my need for her was strong, so I called for her.
FOCUS she said walking around me crossly, her blue body emanating freezing chill. Her absent teeth and croak language not understood by a human ear. She told me to put my head forward exposing the back of my neck. She made gestures suggestive of clearing a space and it felt good her fingers touching my skin. I heard loudly Lavender/Juniper berry and Lemongrass.
She continued walking and sat against a rock opposite me continuing to whisper words unknown to me under her breath.
I came out in tears from this short and intense encounter knowing the chakra Cailleagh pointed towards is blocked and I must apply the oils she spoke of to it for today and the rest of the week.
They all represent love, health, protection and purification – common attributes of these oils mixed together.
The chakra at the back of the neck or Ta Chui is associated with a sense of self, self-esteem, career and a place in the world. This resonates more than I can tell you. These are exact issues I am currently facing and filled with self-doubt and somewhat sadness about whether what I have achieved is somehow enough, am I enough? FOCUS, she said.
What I did differently this morning?
I played Celtic music and used Invocation and read out Celtic devotionals sitting at my Altar. It felt empowering somewhat and I felt the need within me to encounter the Goddess. When I closed my eyes holding on to the stone from the sacred land she came instantly. What a fascinating and beautiful being she is. It is impossible to describe. She smelt like earth and herbs with her bright blue skin and toothless mouth she wore a lot of animal bones and feathers in her attire. She was short and small, but her arms long stretching into another dimension.
Feeling humbled and clearly told. I believe she attempted to smile towards the end and said ‘Remember who you are…’